Every year during the month of November for the past three years, my roommates and I have put up a "Wall of Gratitude". This wall of sticky notes serves as reminder of all the things we have been blessed with and gives us an opportunity to express our gratitude. It becomes a game to a certain extent. We usually keep it up throughout Christmas to remind us about all of the wonderful things in life. Well it's only October and I don't have any roommates this year, but I want to start my "Wall of Gratitude". I am challenging myself for the next two months to find something everyday to be grateful for and to express that gratitude. If it's a long story I feel like sharing about my gratitude, I'll share it on here. If it's a quick thought, I'll share it on Facebook. I also will take the time to write private and personal notes of gratitude to those in my life to whom I owe a debt of gratitude. Which is most of the people in my life.
My first "sticky note of gratitude" goes to my Heavenly Father. Of course I always owe him and feel grateful for the life He has granted me, the world He allows me to live in, and the family and friends He has blessed me with. But today I am feeling particularly grateful for His guidance in my life for a particular reason.
Today I found out that starting in January 2014, because of some new government regulations, Child Life Interns will have to be either affiliated with a college or paid in order to do their internship that is required to become certified. Because of this, if I didn't have my internship that I have today, I wouldn't be able to do my internship, because I am unaffiliated with any college and let's face it, they're never gonna pay interns. I got this internship at the perfect time.
Flash back to two years ago. As my EFY participants and close friends and family know, I was debating on going on a mission. I really, really wanted to go on a mission. I had a mile long list on why it was a good idea for me to go on a mission. I had wanted to go since I was eleven years old. I had been told by many people I would be a really good missionary, and I believed them. I thought it would be an awesome experience. But I had never asked my Heavenly Father about it. This time of year two years ago I started to really ask Heavenly Father about my plan to go on a mission. I told him how much I wanted to go. But I got an answer of "No." I didn't understand it. I argued with Heavenly Father, telling Him that it was a good thing that I wanted. I fluctuated back and forth about going on a mission for two months.
Finally I had a really great friend tell me about her experience as an EFY counselor. I felt really strongly that I should apply to be an EFY counselor. So I did. And long story short, on some long shot, I became an EFY counselor. That opportunity was the best two summers of my life.
My decision to not go on a mission has still been a difficult one. As I watched the age drop and watched many friends and my younger brother going on missions, I wondered if I was missing something, if I had made the right choice. I watched women my age who had gone on missions as they came back and these women were incredible. I wondered if I could ever reach their spiritual level. I wondered if I had missed out on my chance.
Through an incredible EFY miracle, I got an internship out in PA for this fall. I am exactly where I need to be. If I had gone with my plan for my life and gone on a mission, an internship would've been so much harder for me to get. I would have missed this awesome opportunity. I would have missed the opportunity to work with so many amazing youth and make amazing friends.
I am so glad that Heavenly Father told me "No." I couldn't understand it two years ago, or even one year ago. But Heavenly Father had a specific plan for me. He had something that for me was better than a mission. I know that Heavenly Father wants me to be a Child Life Specialist. I don't know why, but I know he does. I know that He wants me to live in Pennsylvania right now. I don't know why, I just know he does. I'm excited to see how other pieces of my life and His plan for me work out. I know that Heavenly Father has guided me so far, and I know that He will continue to guide me to where I need to be.
If you don't know why you are where you are or why Heavenly Father gave you an answer that you didn't want or what Heavenly Father wants you to do with your life, just know this. Heavenly Father does have a plan for you. You may not understand it. It may be difficult. It may be different than what you would plan for yourself. But the peace that comes from living your plan and knowing that you are where Heavenly Father wants you is worth the difficulty. Heavenly Father loves you and knows you better than you know your self.
"Desire's dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions. The desires we act on determine our changing, our achieving, and our becoming."
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Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Wall of Gratitude
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Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Palmyra, New York
I didn't have to work on Monday so I decided to take a trip up to Palmyra, New York to see the church sites. What an amazing day trip. It took me a while to get up there because it was raining and my GPS took me through all sorts of tiny, random towns. I finally arrived at noon and it was still raining at that point. I drove past the Hill Cumorah, the Palmyra Temple, and started at the Joseph Smith Farm. I was greeted by a lovely missionary, Sister Trang. She showed me around the log cabin where the Smith Family originally lived and where the Angel Moroni visited Joseph Smith and told him where to go at the Hill Cumorah to find the gold plates. It was really cool to be in the room where it happened. Then we walked down to the frame house and we realized that we were EFY counselors together at SLC week 2 last year. Crazy small world. She then showed me the frame house and we continued to discuss EFY. Then she allowed me to walk into the Sacred Grove by myself. Since I had my phone with me, I decided to play the Mormon Tabernacle Choir CD dedicated to the prophet Joseph Smith softly. I started off with Joseph Smith's First Prayer, the On A Golden Springtime, and then This Is My Beloved Son. As I walked it was still raining a little, but not down pouring. It was a peaceful rain and the rain drops looked absolutely beautiful on the leaves and trees. I could feel the Spirit so strongly as I wandered. I could imagine Joseph Smith praying and pictures Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appearing. I stopped to pray for a moment. Then I began to make my way back out, listening to Joseph, A Nashville Tribute songs The Prayer and The Rising. I stopped halfway through to the end and decided to read Joseph Smith History. It was so beautiful. I realized as I read about the visit from the Angel Moroni, that it had occurred 190 years ago, to the week, almost to the day, I was there. It was a tender mercy. Seeing these sites was an amazing experience, especially as I had had an opportunity to study Joseph Smith and the process to bring forth the Book of Mormon all summer at EFY.
I then decided to stop by the Palmyra Temple and the Grandin Bookstore. The Palmyra Temple is small but beautiful with stain glass windows of the sacred grove and a view of the sacred grove. I also was able to attend the temple dedication of this temple so it was really cool to see it in person. On the way to the bookstore I saw the four churches on the corner that caused Joseph so much confusion. The bookstore was really cool as well. It was cool to see how much work went into the printing of the Book of Mormon. The Sister Missionary who took me on the tour there happened to have dated the son of one of my favorite Child Life Professors at Utah. Again it was a super small world. After I went to the Hill Cumorah which was also a really cool experience.
Guys, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is so so true. It's amazing. And I love it.
I then decided to stop by the Palmyra Temple and the Grandin Bookstore. The Palmyra Temple is small but beautiful with stain glass windows of the sacred grove and a view of the sacred grove. I also was able to attend the temple dedication of this temple so it was really cool to see it in person. On the way to the bookstore I saw the four churches on the corner that caused Joseph so much confusion. The bookstore was really cool as well. It was cool to see how much work went into the printing of the Book of Mormon. The Sister Missionary who took me on the tour there happened to have dated the son of one of my favorite Child Life Professors at Utah. Again it was a super small world. After I went to the Hill Cumorah which was also a really cool experience.
Guys, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is so so true. It's amazing. And I love it.
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Monday, September 23, 2013
Danville, PA
When Dad and I arrived in Danville we took the time to explore my new little town and the fair that happened to be going on that day. We ate real Amish pie and the best strawberry jam ever. Danville is a cute little old town and I live right next to the river. It's a beautiful place.
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Sunday, September 22, 2013
The Drive To Danville
I didn't take many pictures during our three day drive to Danville. I think I took all of the pictures on the same day. But this shows our trip to Winter Quarters. It was really cool. It is really cool because the Winter Quarters Temple is right next to the cemetery. To me it was a great reminder both of why we do temple work and of the people who made the ultimate sacrifice so that we could do temple work today. It was really cool to see the visitors center, cemetery, and temple. The Winters Quarter Temple is special to me because it was one of the first temple dedications I was able to attend via broadcast when I was about 8 or 9 years old.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Dear Internet
For the first time in the past three weeks I have consistent access to the internet. Hooray! Because of this lack of internet access I have not kept my blog caught up. Mentally I have written about a million and one blog posts. So dear little blog, let me catch you up.
I now live in a different state and a different time zone and a different world than the last time I wrote. The state is Pennsylvania, the time zone Eastern, and the world Beautiful. After this move and my past month in Virginia and my little trips back east over my lifetime, I'm convinced that there is an east coast girl that has been waiting to come out. And here she is!
I will post a few pictures on this post and I will post more later. Right now I should be working on homework that is due tomorrow. :)
More pictures and posts to come soon!
I now live in a different state and a different time zone and a different world than the last time I wrote. The state is Pennsylvania, the time zone Eastern, and the world Beautiful. After this move and my past month in Virginia and my little trips back east over my lifetime, I'm convinced that there is an east coast girl that has been waiting to come out. And here she is!
I will post a few pictures on this post and I will post more later. Right now I should be working on homework that is due tomorrow. :)
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| This is me and my street! |
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| Dad and I stopped at Winter Quarters on the way out here. |
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| Winter Quarters Temple |
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| Danville Courthouse |
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Sunday, July 7, 2013
Lexington, VA
We went on a day trip yesterday to Lexington. There we saw VMI (the Virginia Military Institute), Stonewall Jackson's Cemetery, and ate at Macado's Restaurant. The VMI is a beautiful school that looks like it's a cross between a prison and a castle. We visited a chapel on the campus that was located above the schools museum. I didn't take any pictures because I didn't want to be disrespectful but it was beautiful. There was a huge painting of soldiers in battle above the stage. I thumbed through the hymnals and the prayer books left in the pews. It was very cool to see. The museum was cool to see as well, with more paintings and a display of huge class rings.
Then we went Stonewall Jackson's cemetery. The cemetery was very beautiful with huge trees and old tombstones. For a little background on Stonewall Jackson, he was one of the generals for the Civil War and is arguably one of the best US was generals ever. (You know, except for the fact he was on the wrong side...) Another fun fact, his arm is buried at a farm house near the battlefield where he died. It was amputated eight days before he died. He was killed by friendly fire. He ate lots of fruit and one historian argues his favorite fruit was lemons. People still leave lemons at his grave, although evidence now shows they weren't his favorite fruit.
Then we went Stonewall Jackson's cemetery. The cemetery was very beautiful with huge trees and old tombstones. For a little background on Stonewall Jackson, he was one of the generals for the Civil War and is arguably one of the best US was generals ever. (You know, except for the fact he was on the wrong side...) Another fun fact, his arm is buried at a farm house near the battlefield where he died. It was amputated eight days before he died. He was killed by friendly fire. He ate lots of fruit and one historian argues his favorite fruit was lemons. People still leave lemons at his grave, although evidence now shows they weren't his favorite fruit.
| I thought it was really interesting that there would still be Confederate flags hanging through out the cemetery. |
| Stonewall Jackson and the Confederate flags and lemons left at his grave. |
| Close up of lemon and Confederate flag. |
| "He did what he had to do for where he was" |
We ate at Macado's which was super yummy. It's a local sandwich shop that has a huge menu full of yummy foods like the Mona Lisa, the Titantic, and the Julius Cesar. It was super fun to see.
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Friday, July 5, 2013
Things I Haven't Posted Yet
It's been a while since I've blogged. I guess I've been too busy living to blog. Which is definitely a good thing. Anyway, here are the updates:
- I went to Arizona and was a mother for a week and a half to three children. What a crazy week and a half! But I'm so glad that I got to hang out with Sabrina and her adorable children!
- I have been working EFY this summer. I worked three weeks in Utah and I'm now in Virginia for four weeks!
- I will be moving to Pennsylvania to do a Child Life internship (in the middle of nowhere) sometime in August or September (date still up in the air). Getting that internship was an EFY miracle. And it is obviously where I need to be now.
- I love Virginia. It's so green and beautiful. And the fireflies! Oh the fireflies! I am officially obsessed with fireflies! I had no idea what I was missing but I'm like a little kid when I see fireflies! And the food! Oh the yummy, huge portioned, unhealthy food that tastes like a sinful heaven! I love it! I'm going to be so fat at the end of this month. Except for the huge hill (mountain?) that I have to climb several times a day to get back to my dorms.
- And yes I've been wearing yellow all summer. And I wore a bright pink sparkly headband today. It's a strange world we live in.
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Wednesday, May 8, 2013
I'm Feeling 22
Not A Lot Going On At The Moment:
I just graduated college
And Institute (woot woot).
Just turned in my internship applications.
I'm currently on my way to Arizona for a week and a half to hang out with three of the coolest kids ever (and occassionally their parents).
I have EFY for eight weeks this summer, four of which are in Virginia.
Who knows where I'll be in four months.
Oh and it's my birthday.
No big deal.
22 Lyrics:
And make fun of our exes,
ah ah, ah ah
It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight
To fall in love with strangers, ah ah, ah ah
Yeah we're happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time
It's miserable and magical oh yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines, it's time
Uh oh, I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want too
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22, 22
It seems like one of those nights, this place is too crowded
Too many cool kids, (who's Taylor Swift anyway? ew) ah ah, ah ah
It seems like one of those nights we ditch the whole scene
And end up dreaming instead of sleeping
Yeah we're happy, free, confused and lonely in the best way
It's miserable and magical oh yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the heartbreaks, it's time
Uh oh, I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want too
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22. 22
(I don't know about you) 22, 22
(I don't know about you) 22, 22
It feels like one of those nights, we ditch the whole scene
It feels like one of those nights, we won't be sleeping
It feels like one of those nights, you look like bad news
I gotta have you, I gotta have you
Oh, Oh, Yeah
Oh, Oh, Yeah
I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want too
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22. 22
22, 22 (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
22, 22 (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
It feels like one of those nights, we ditch the whole scene
It feels like one of those nights, we won't be sleeping
It feels like one of those nights, you look like bad news
I gotta have you, I gotta have you
(Please forgive me and my immaturity in this post. You know, the changing of the font, the colors, the overuse of bold and italics. I know it's distracting and looks like a twelve year old wrote it. But it's my birthday and I went overboard. And can you tell how old I am turning? I feel like I wasn't obvious enough. It happens. I'm over it.)
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Graduation 2013
I did it! After four years and two universities I'm a college graduate!! I'm so glad my parents and grandparents were all able to make it to the ceremony.
As I close this chapter of my life, I'm feeling so grateful. I couldn't have graduated without all of the love and support of my family and friends. I would be nowhere without my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins.
| My graduation announcements |
| Grandma and Grandpa Heiner and I. |
| Me and all of my grandparents. |
| Grandma Moore and I. |
| Me and my parents. |
| Yay I'm Graduated! |
Friday, March 22, 2013
"Living In The Moment"
I absolutely love Jason Mraz. I stumbled across across one of his new songs "Living in the Moment" while listening this playlist on Songza and I immediately pressed the thumbs up button, googled the lyrics to this song, and added the song on Spotify. (Random tangent: It's pretty ridiculous just how many different ways it is to listen to music now. You'd think between my CD's, car radio, iTunes, Pandora, last.fm, Grooveshark, Youtube, Songza, Spotify, and my iPhone which has access to most of these music mediums, I'd have enough ways to listen to any song I want whenever I want. And you'd probably be right. But should it really take so many different avenues to get music? I think it's slightly ridiculous, but I've pretty much almost always got at least one of them playing. I may be slightly addicted. I wonder if that's healthy? But I digress.) Just ask my mother, this song is exactly what I need right now. This past month have been absolutely insane and I have a feeling the next few months are going to be even crazier. Now most of the madness has actually been very positive and I am so grateful for the opportunities that have been presented in my life right now. But as good as they have been, they have also been stressful and I've been feeling really anxious, which I know is not healthy. I know that I need to "run and hide my crazy and start acting like a lady" and "I wish I could be just a little less dramatic" (Miranda Lambert, "Mama's Broken Heart"). This song helps me to be a little less crazy and dramatic. Jason Mraz is a genius, there isn't a song of his that I have heard that I haven't loved. This song is like a grown up version of "Hakuna Mata" which is perfect because I love that song but I'm not so good at having "no worries for the rest of my days." But I'm going to try to be better at living in the moment with no worries.
Enjoy!
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Lyrics:
If this life is one act
Why do we lay all these traps
We put 'em right in our path
When we just wanna be free
I will not waste my days
Making up all kinds of ways
To worry about all things
That will not happen to me
So I just let go of what I know I don't know
And I know I'll only do this by
Living in the moment
Living my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
Peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
Living in the moment
I'm letting myself off the hook for things I've done
I let my past go past
And now I'm having more fun
I'm letting go of the thoughts
That do not make me strong
And I believe this way can be the same for everyone
And if I fall asleep
I know you'll be the one who'll always remind me
To live in the moment
To live my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
With peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I can't walk through life facing backwards
I have tried
I tried more than once to just make sure
And I was denied the future I'd been searching for
But I spun around and searched no more
By living in the moment
Living my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
With peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
I'm living my life
Just taking it easy
With peace in my mind
I got peace in my heart
I got peace in my soul
Oh, wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
I'm living my life
Oh, easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
I got peace in my heart
I got peace in my soul
Oh, wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
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Thursday, March 7, 2013
New Experiences
"A person who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new." - Albert EinsteinLife is filled with new experiences. That's what life is all about. Life is a series of experiences, occurring day after day.
"With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts." - Eleanor RooseveltThese past few weeks I've had a series of new experiences happen in my life. Some of those experiences have been stressful and overwhelming.
"You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream." - C. S. LewisSome of those experiences have been sweet, happy experiences. I guess it's because good always comes with bad and vice versa. That's sort of what Lehi said, right?
"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths." - Walt DisneyOne of the new experiences is sending Mason off on his mission. I miss him, but I am seeing the blessings that are coming from having a missionary in the family.
"Do one thing everyday that scares you." - Eleanor RooseveltAnother new experience for me lately has been learning to accept help from family when I need it.
"A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions." - Oliver Wendell Holmes Jr.I feel like I can officially be pronounced an adult. I have done Jury duty. That experience won't have to be repeated for at least two years.
"Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing." - Oscar WildeSometimes new experiences are experiences that you have hoped and prayed for all of your life and have always seemed just out of reach. Then out of no where you get to have the experience for yourself.
"Nothing ever becomes real till it's experienced." - John KeatesThere are experiences that you never thought you'd experience, never wanted to experience, and that you wouldn't ever want to experience again.
“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” ― Eleanor RooseveltNew experiences are terrifying because you never know what they will be like until you have actually experienced them.
“A new experience can be extremely pleasurable, or extremely irritating, or somewhere in between, and you never know until you try it out.” ― Lemony Snicket, The Blank BookExperiences are more valuable then things. Always.
"Know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." - Doctrine and Covenants 122:7
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Sunday, January 27, 2013
Called To Serve
This weekend I went home for my little brother's LDS mission farewell ("little" doesn't describe him very well anymore, he's taller than I am now, younger would be a more accurate description, but I've been calling him my little brother forever). It was a great weekend, definitely worth braving the fog and the snow to make it back home for Mason. I was so glad so many of my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins were able to make the five hour drive down especially with the weather. It was great to be able to share this awesome occasion with them. It was great to be able to hang Mason one last time before his mission to Ecuador. And I was glad I was able to help my parents out a little bit with getting ready for brunch after Mason's talk.
The actual farewell was great. The opening hymn was "Hark All Ye Nations" which immediately brought me back to EFY. It was one of the songs that was part of musical program which I got to be apart of for two out of my six weeks. It was one of my favorite songs in the program, although I really wasn't too familiar with it before that summer. EFY last summer was all about missionary work, which was perfect for these kids who would soon hear about the new age requirements for missionary work. Mason's talk was great, even though the night before I had distracted him from working on it by joking about movie quotes that he should put in the talk. Movie quotes and jokes are how we bond. It was my last chance to hang out with him. After Mason finished bearing his testimony in Spanish he, my dad, the young men in our ward, and young men leaders sang "Called To Serve" another song dear to my heart because of EFY. "Called To Serve" and "I Am A Child Of God" are the new EFY medly. After Brother Duffin and Bishop Ence spoke and then we sang "God Be With You Till We Meet Again". That song killed me. I didn't even make it through the first verse before I started bawling. My mom and dad saw me crying, so they started crying. Both my grandmothers cried as well. But I definitely cried the hardest. I left as soon as the closing prayer was said, hoping to gain my composure while getting ready for the brunch. In my hurry I lost my shoe, dumped my purse onto my foot and the accelerator while driving home, and got mud from the car all over my leg. I was a mess.
We got home and I got through the brunch ok until I knew it was time I needed to go so I could beat the snow storm. Then even the thought of saying good bye got me teary eyed. I was sad I had to leave so soon, that I'm not coming back home sooner, that I won't be there to see Mason off to the airport. I was sad that I had to drive five hours away. I didn't want to say good bye. I felt bad that everyone was around when I said bye. I couldn't stop crying. My family was great, loving, and supportive, sharing their own experiences of saying good bye to brothers, reminding me why it was good for Mason to be going on a mission and I appreciated their love, advice, and caring. I wasn't crying because I didn't think Mason should go on a mission. I was crying because I was going to miss him and I wanted more time with him. We're finally friends.(It's days like today that make me regret what a brat I was during the first eighteen years of my life, especially towards Mason.) I don't want him to leave me but I do think he should go. He's not even really leaving for another couple weeks and I've been missing him since the beginning of January. It just all came to a head today. And I couldn't stop crying. We hugged like three times. We made my aunts cry. Mason's friends kind of laughed at my crying. I told them to shut up. Mason and I said good bye and I drove away.
And I cried all the way until we (my grandmother and I) reached Cedar City.
And then I cried intermittently until we reached Fillmore.
Grandma just kept handing me tissues.
And then I cried while writing this blog post. (Writing this blog post while listening to "Cat's In The Cradle" by Harry Chapin, "You'll Be In My Heart" by Phil Collins, "Don't Forget To Remember Me" by Carrie Underwood, and "Daniel" by Elton John didn't help with the crying.)
And I'll probably cry all the way through February too.
I keep thinking of the quote from the movie The Other Side Of Heaven where the dad says "I don't know anyone in Tonga well enough to love them, and send them my son, but I guess God does." That basically sums up how I feel right now, I don't know anyone in Ecuador well enough to love them and send them my brother but I guess God does.
Mason's going to be a great missionary. He's naturally friendly and social (much more friendly and social than I ever have been.) He's smart, a hard worker, and he has a great testimony of the gospel. And I'm sure he'll keep his companions and investigators laughing. Mason is very caring and loving as well. I'm happy and excited for him and the people of Ecuador. I'm just sad for me. Because I'm going to miss my friend.
The actual farewell was great. The opening hymn was "Hark All Ye Nations" which immediately brought me back to EFY. It was one of the songs that was part of musical program which I got to be apart of for two out of my six weeks. It was one of my favorite songs in the program, although I really wasn't too familiar with it before that summer. EFY last summer was all about missionary work, which was perfect for these kids who would soon hear about the new age requirements for missionary work. Mason's talk was great, even though the night before I had distracted him from working on it by joking about movie quotes that he should put in the talk. Movie quotes and jokes are how we bond. It was my last chance to hang out with him. After Mason finished bearing his testimony in Spanish he, my dad, the young men in our ward, and young men leaders sang "Called To Serve" another song dear to my heart because of EFY. "Called To Serve" and "I Am A Child Of God" are the new EFY medly. After Brother Duffin and Bishop Ence spoke and then we sang "God Be With You Till We Meet Again". That song killed me. I didn't even make it through the first verse before I started bawling. My mom and dad saw me crying, so they started crying. Both my grandmothers cried as well. But I definitely cried the hardest. I left as soon as the closing prayer was said, hoping to gain my composure while getting ready for the brunch. In my hurry I lost my shoe, dumped my purse onto my foot and the accelerator while driving home, and got mud from the car all over my leg. I was a mess.
We got home and I got through the brunch ok until I knew it was time I needed to go so I could beat the snow storm. Then even the thought of saying good bye got me teary eyed. I was sad I had to leave so soon, that I'm not coming back home sooner, that I won't be there to see Mason off to the airport. I was sad that I had to drive five hours away. I didn't want to say good bye. I felt bad that everyone was around when I said bye. I couldn't stop crying. My family was great, loving, and supportive, sharing their own experiences of saying good bye to brothers, reminding me why it was good for Mason to be going on a mission and I appreciated their love, advice, and caring. I wasn't crying because I didn't think Mason should go on a mission. I was crying because I was going to miss him and I wanted more time with him. We're finally friends.(It's days like today that make me regret what a brat I was during the first eighteen years of my life, especially towards Mason.) I don't want him to leave me but I do think he should go. He's not even really leaving for another couple weeks and I've been missing him since the beginning of January. It just all came to a head today. And I couldn't stop crying. We hugged like three times. We made my aunts cry. Mason's friends kind of laughed at my crying. I told them to shut up. Mason and I said good bye and I drove away.
And I cried all the way until we (my grandmother and I) reached Cedar City.
And then I cried intermittently until we reached Fillmore.
Grandma just kept handing me tissues.
And then I cried while writing this blog post. (Writing this blog post while listening to "Cat's In The Cradle" by Harry Chapin, "You'll Be In My Heart" by Phil Collins, "Don't Forget To Remember Me" by Carrie Underwood, and "Daniel" by Elton John didn't help with the crying.)
And I'll probably cry all the way through February too.
I keep thinking of the quote from the movie The Other Side Of Heaven where the dad says "I don't know anyone in Tonga well enough to love them, and send them my son, but I guess God does." That basically sums up how I feel right now, I don't know anyone in Ecuador well enough to love them and send them my brother but I guess God does.
Mason's going to be a great missionary. He's naturally friendly and social (much more friendly and social than I ever have been.) He's smart, a hard worker, and he has a great testimony of the gospel. And I'm sure he'll keep his companions and investigators laughing. Mason is very caring and loving as well. I'm happy and excited for him and the people of Ecuador. I'm just sad for me. Because I'm going to miss my friend.
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Saturday, June 30, 2012
Another Late Night
I'm up late again, chilling in the stairwell, making sure none of the EFY Friday night lock down "prisoners" don't escape. The keys are collected, damage reports completed, I'm listening to my Walt Disney Pandora channel, reading some General Conference talks, finishing up my tenth journal and beginning my eleventh journal. I love EFY. It's weird to think that I'm not going to be doing this for another three weeks. EFY has consumed my life this past month and I've loved it. I'm exhausted and I could use a break, but part of me really doesn't want a break. It's so cool to actually be making a difference by what I'm doing. Even if I just touch one or two lives for good, it's so worth it. I love going to bed exhausted because I've been serving others and my Savior. And bringing these girls and boys closer to Him has brought me closer to Him. I've made some awesome friends. I've learned what it means to be truly respected by men and I've learned what it looks like when a man loves the Lord with all his heart. I've learned that I need to learn how to work in a partnership better. I've learned that I hate disciplining people, even when it's necessary and in their best interests. I've learned that people get scared when you threaten to go all "Lamanite mother" on them. I've been able to glimpse Heavenly Father's love for these kids. I've learned how much I've learned over the past seven years of my life. I've learned a lot since I was fourteen. And when I'm twenty eight I'll be like "I've learned a lot since I was twenty one." I want my kids to know that life gets better than it is at fourteen. It really truly does.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Arise and Shine
Wow!! I have learned and grown so much the past few weeks doing EFY. I have made many new friends and I've learned lots of parenting skills. I have also learned to trust in the Lord and He has given me strength beyond my own to do the things that I need to do for my children at EFY. It's so awesome to see the change that happens in just a week with these kids as they learn to apply the gosple to their lives. This whole experience has really strengthened my testimony too. My girls strength amazes me, they all have so many hard things going on in their lives.
Not too mention that I feel so much more hip now. I'm all up on what's cool with 14 - 15 and the 16 - 18 crowd. I've learned a lot about the Bieb's and One Direction, COWs (crush of the week), and that apparently the music I grew up with in elementary school is cool again, especially Backstreet Boys and N'Sync! It's pretty much awesome!!
These past few weeks have been some of the hardest weeks of my life. I've gone to bed every night absolutely exhausted and woken up still exhausted. But it's the best feeling ever. I've felt tired for all sorts of reasons but the best tired is tired out from doing the work of the Lord with all your heart, might, mind, and strength. Because of that these weeks have also been some of the best weeks of my life. I have seen miracles. And I can't wait for more EFY weeks.
Basically the moral of the story is that I have the best job ever in the history of best job's ever!!!
'Nuff said.
Enjoy the pictures. :)
| Cute note from an unknown boy to all the girls at EFY. |
| The Celestial One's |
| My Celestial Girls |
| Amore Girls |
| My Co-Co Fonzie |
| My Co-Co Kelsey and I |
| Me and Fonzie |
| Josh and Kelsey |
| Amore!! |
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